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Ring…

Waiting for the phone call.

What does the bell foretell?

A Tone of great hope?

or frightful rerror soon to be known?

A first date?  A friendship unwound?

Hours of banter ?  Few words between friends?

Disapointment or joy?

Are you a new job? A carreer starting tome?

Are you a new path about to be trod?

or are you a sorrow about to unfold?

Words of great wisdom or words of great debt

Fear from the future, or love finally met?

Ring! Ring!

Hello?

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Dog/God?  Of Course!! (in process, but I’d love comments…)
There is nothing like the reunion with a beloved pet- pure joy and pure love.  I just watched a you tube video of a very sweet beagle welcome home his “Mom” who was returning from a tour of duty with the Army.  The sweet beagle danced, ‘sang’, whimpered, twirled, jumped into Mom’s lap, snuggling as if to crawl into Mom’s skin!  Her eyes were filled with pure delight as the greeting went on and on.  It was so grace filled.  It reminded me of the vision I have of The Prodigal Son. Unending Overwhelming joy for one who has been ‘away’!  I can see God reaching out to us with the enthusiasm of a precious Beagle-  Dancing with Glee, embracing us, snuggling with us, holding us as if to keep us from ever departing again, but then letting go and breaking out in a joyful dance-God sings and the voice of perfection fills the air. The image causes my heart and my soul to fill with such amazing wonder-  That the God that created the bond between human and beloved canine, while great and powerful, reminds us that it is only a  model, a tiny proportion of God’s amazing love.  Wow! It does makes me cry with the purest of tears.  When I think of heaven, one of my favorite visions is of the first encounter I will have with my beloved pets- once I reach the rainbow bridge.  From all corners of a beautiful green field, with balls in some mouths, bones in others, and sloppy tongues hanging askew, I see all the beloved dogs of my life. I can’t wait to see all my little pups-  from my very first- who was around before I ever popped on the scene, to those who I have yet to meet.  All running towards me with tails high and body’s wiggling as they run- Imagine… I have been, and continue to be blessed by the most loving pups… I wonder if I’ll need a Kennel liscence in heaven! 🙂   I know that there are more that will be added to the list before I depart this world for the next, but just thinking about the moment of reunion brings such joy~- What a unique pack this rag-tag bunch will be.  United only by their giant sweet hearts, my canine pack, and a few feline friends, will run the entire gammut of construction and adornment!  From short haired to long, very small, to big,  Floppy ears to little pointed trinagles, spotted to solid to tic’ed.  Long tails to teathered curls to teeny boston tail curls, all forms of God’s creativity.  There are the current  four-pack, including Maggie  the 12 year old Jack Russel Terrier,  Jonesy the 8 year old “Bassador” assumed to be a perfect mix of Chocolate Labrador and Basset Hound!  He has the legs of a basset, the body of a lab, The head of a lab and the ears of a Basset!  His wonderful cross breeding is bested only by his loving, lazy sweet personality.  Then we have the twins,  Roscoe and Daisy-Clover the “perfect” blue tic beagles.  These balls of energetic kind and boisterous love is offset by their rousing love of singing and their perception that it is their duty to protect not just our home and yard, but the street and sidewalk as well.  According to their very conscientious watching, no one should ever choose to walk on our beautiful street, especially if they have a dog on a string with them!  These amazing 5 year old pups gave us a taste of the heavenly reunion when they ran away and were gone for nine days last August.  Those 9 days were torture for humans, and apparently not too thriling for the beagles.  Recovered through a whole community effort, along with a real lie ‘pet detector” they actually ran into the arms of my partner while she sat in a quiet space, nearby the last place they had been sighted.  As she called gently, tears running down her cheeks, the beagles burst through the knee high brush and into her startled arms.  They haven’t stopped celebrating the union yet, over a year later!.  It was a sweet moment when my partner called me once all three were safely locked into the car.  While she swears that she was speaking english I couldn’t understand a word of her excited giberish except for “Daisy”, “Roscoe” “Here” “Both” and “Safe”  That’s all I heard, but who needs more?  My heart was beating so fast, and I was so filled with anticipation that when the car pulled into the driveway five minutes later, I launched myself into the seat with the babies, and had the most joyous welcome immagineable!  My own prodigal couple had returned.  All of the ‘worst case scenario’s that had occupied my brain for 9 days disolved into the mosty glorious feeling of relief, joy, love, trust and adoration.  I didn’t know that such happinnness existed.  While we headed off for a quick trip to the Vet to balm the pups feet, and tweeze some of the awful porcupine quills out of Roscoe’s snout- a process that took a week to completely eliminate. That reunion, however, was just a glimmer of heaven.
It is this great pack that comprise our company of angels’ Pepper- (The dog of my infancy- a perfect Cocker Spaniel) Scottie ( a purebread Scottish Terrier- that we had to return because he just didn’t relate to a house full of kids-but his previous owner was willing to care for him again) Cindy ( a beautiful and perfectly tempered Cocka-poo- whose only toy- which she had for life was an old, battered and much loved catcher’s mit!) Snoopy (Who deserved to keep his original ame of Goliath (even if Dad didn’t like it!) – and I think will be in heaven too!  He was some kind of terrier mix- looked a bit like a rat terrier, a Jack Russel and ??? whoever jumped the fence at Betty’s house!)  Then I was blessed with Jessica- who first belonged to my college Prof., who headded off to Sabattical.  My parents quickly claimed this beautiful black cocker mix- who had her full tail!!  My first ‘adult’ dog was Meka- a super sweet Lhasa Apso, and then my soulmate dog, Molly- an undefinable smaller dog (@24 LBS) who had short hair in places, long hair in places, a stunning very long ruff, sweet tweed-like unrully hair, very thin legs, the sweetest face and deep shiny eyes, and cute little flippy ears.  NO One every attempted to guess her origins!  Amongst the adult dogs, Dolly- my tiny but mighy Boston Terrier, who I think was about 12 when I got her- so blessed was I to be with for 4 precious years- She was the grossest and sweetest pup, and the first of my blended family- Theo-(the Most Excellent Theopholos) and  Sharon’s wonderful White Jack Russel terrier- who had the gruffest exterior, and a heart as big as his ego.  I adored him, and think my reunion with Theo will be a special special event.  Wow- I am I lucky!!
There is nothing like the reunion with a beloved pet- pure joy and pure love.  This makes me cry-really pure tears.  I can’t wait to see all my pups- from babyhood till the day I die all gathered and waiting- Imagine… I have been, and continue to be blessed by the most loving pups…WoW!  Wonder if I’ll need a Kennel liscence in heaven! 🙂   I know that there will be more critters- but the current list includes Our current 4- Maggie (Jack Russel) Jonesy (Lab/Basset Hound) Roscoe and Daisy (Blue Tic Beagles) and our company of angels includes, Pepper- (The dog of my infancy- a perfect Cocker Spaniel) Scottie ( a purebread Scottish Terrier- that we had to return because he just didn’t relate to a house full of kids-but his previous owner was willing to care for him again) Cindy ( a beautiful and perfectly tempered Cocka-poo- whose only toy- which she had for live was an old, battered and much loved catcher’s mit!) Snoopy (WHo was origionally named Golithath- and I think will be in heaven too!  He was some kind of terrier mix- looked a bit like a rat terrier, a Jack Russel and ???whoever jumped the fence at my friends house!)  Then I was blessed with Jessica- who first belonged to my college Prof., who was going on Sabattical.  My parents quickly claimed this beautiful black cocker mix- who had her full tail!!  My first ‘adult’ dog was Meka- a super sweet Lhasa Apso, and then my soulmate dog, Molly- an undefinable smaller dog (@24 LBS) who had short hair in places, long hair in places, a stunning very long ruff, sweet tweed-like unrully hair, very thin legs, the sweetest face and deep shiny eyes, and cute little flippy ears.  NO One every attempted to know her heritage!  Amongst the adult dogs, Dolly- my tiny but mighy Boston Terrier, who I think was about 12 when I got her- and I was blessed to be with for 4 kprecious years- She was the grossest and sweetest pup, and the first of my blended family- Theo-  Sharon’s wonderful White Jack Russel terrier- who had the gruffest exterior, and a heart as big as his ego.  I adored him, and think my reunion with Theo will be a special special even.  Wow- I’ve been lucky!!

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Healing begun

Inner tornados

torrent of flayling water

swirling sense-less activity

purposed only

to keep at bay feeling

Too intense

Too overwhelming

Too pained

To feel

Away, be gone, banish and vanish

No, No, NO

The swirling inversed tower of denial suddenly

brushed by a tiny tear

Enough.

more forceful than spinning denial

tiny tear on the heart off sorrow

planted deeply beneath the heart,

sprouting from the quieting core

shoots of emotion

reaching the light of pain

waterfalls begin to flow,

from reddened eyes backward to the heart

tears that never truly stop

wrap the heart with grief and compassion

Suffer powerful still begins to quiver

the water of sad carries the boat of death

from malestorm to light,

sails diminished to rise no longer

healing begun.

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A cacophony of barking erupts the once still night

Which dog this time?

Maggie? The chubby Jack Russell sits on her covers, neck back, baying in her soprano clip.

Jonesy? The baritone basset combines with his deep half barreled lab genes.

Roscoe? Daisy-Clover?  hunting beagles shouting  their bold tenor roar into the midnight-

I’m here! I am here!  I AM HERE!

The universe absorbs their presence and answers back with the whips of winter white wind

And the four become one as the individual bark of four companion dogs finds its place

in the timeless holler of canine pride

Age after age, eons of echos, voices unite with all who have ever bayed into the nocturnal void

Pure, united, blended ageless, eerie and joyful, senseless and profound

Living and gone, born and waiting, the howl proclaims the ultimate truth

I AM DOG

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Gone

practiced sorrow; a year 

to advance to perfection

the art

of grief

Echos of loss

bounce in the emptiness 

I cry when I smell fresh tomato

 

 

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Wandering head assaulting thoughts, worlds, random

no stop sign no traffic light to order the madcap madness-no map

Fast moving vehicle crashing one  on two.

BASH, Clang, BOOM – zap 

Bonds holds as pushed to extreme and then 

                                      ricochet

                                                 the melody 

   is

                           my head.

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